The Last Stretch

We´re in the middle of VBS and it has been very successful, but it is very demanding. I am not involved in a way that requires me to be there all the time, but it does demand a lot of time from Ben and if we don´t tag along and try to be where he is we barely see him. So we try to keep up as much as we can given that I am on the 37th week of this pregnancy. Though there is no indication that I may go early, I can tell my body is gearing up for labor. So today, Elena and I missed VBS and stayed home to "rest". As I purposedly ignored all that needed to be done so I could actually get some rest I kept thinking about the imminent event. I can´t say I am looking forward to it ("it" being labor in and of itself)... I AM very much looking forward to meeting this little person, finding out whether it´s a boy or a girl, seeing their little face, holding them and welcoming them into our lives. Yet labor is that "twilight zone" I must go through to get to the desired event and as my body starts warming up for it I realize my spirit and my heart need to be ready as well. Now, my body instinctively knows what to do and will do it with or without my prompting but that is not the case with my heart and spirit. Those I do need to prompt and prepare myself.

I have no way of controlling the circumstances of labor, that is, how long it will be, when it will start, etc. I have learned that those things are beyond my control and that my Father will not allow in my life something that will not work for good. What I can control though is my attitude towards it... my heart and my spirit are subject to me and whatever I choose to let them be influenced by. The intensity of the pain, the length of the stages, the time I go to the hospital and all those factors do not have to determine if I have a "good" or "bad" labor. They shouldn´t even intimidate me or make me nervous or anxious about it. In the greater scheme of things there is so much more than the days or hours I will have to endure to allow this little life to see the light. Actually, VBS has been helping me, believe it or not... these have been the daily verses for VBS:

• Monday: "Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold." (2 Cor. 3:12) Paul is talking about our hope for the glory of the new covenant in comparison to the glory of the previous one. Please, allow me some freedom in applying it to my own benefit: Bringing a new being into this world is a glorious event yet it fades away in the glory of the perfect sacrifice that brought me everlasting life. My hope is in Him, in the glorious life He gives me and I can´t even begin to imagine what He endured for me to have such life. In that light, can my labor be too unbearable? Can my "sacrifice" in giving birth and then mothering this baby through endless days and nights remotely begin to compare to His ultimate sacrifice for me? I must be bold for I have such a hope!
• Tuesday: "God did extraordinary miracles through Paul" (Acts 19:11) My God is the same God that Paul had and He has chosen to perform an extraordinary miracle through these vessels. He allowed for His creative power to be executed through us to bring about a life! He is the creator of life and He only knows why the process can be so excrutiating but I know that He does know so much more than I do and He is doing an extraordinary micracle through me!
• Wednesday: "The God we serve is able to save us, and He will rescue us" (Daniel 3:17) Once again, He WILL see me through, regardless of how long the process!

The week is not over and I still have a few more weeks to go, but if He loves me (which I know He does) and if I believe that He gives us grace for each day (which I do believe) then I just need to stay focused!