Wrapping Up

And so it is that the time to say goodby is looming ahead... it never fails. Little girls are very ready to go home, as the talk of home, missed cousins and friends and missed toys keeps increasing by the hour. We long for the comforts of our little home and at the same time we don't want to leave. Yes, the warm weather is quite tempting but it is always more than that. There are the uncles who don't want to keep missing out on the little girls' growing up. There are grandparents who don't want to see them go either. There are plenty of extended relatives who have been spending every waking hour around us in the hopes of impressing their memory in my girls' hearts. Then there is the fear of leaving elderly grandmothers knowing this could very well be the last goodby. The sadness of leaving a mom and dad who could very well use our help around here as age bills them for living, as well as that of leaving two dear brothers who are now their own men and I miss out on their lives. There is the childhood best friend with whom we just never have enough time to catch up and just "be". It doesn't matter how much time goes by or how many times we do this... it is never easier. The goodby is always as dreaded as the last one and some are even left unsaid just because they're so unpleasant.

On the other hand, there is the calling and the life we have at home... there is the knowledge of how much joy it bring to our Father that we are obeying the call and seeking His will. He is good, and He knew our life would look this way. In that knowledge I cling to His promise of providing for my every need, I cling to the knowledge of His sovereignty, I cling to His love and His grace. I can't imagine living like this without Him in my life...