Yesterday was that kind of day... blah, at least that is how I felt. Mostly because I was tired from a poor night's sleep. One thing about pregnancy is that I get all these weird dreams that usually make me more tired than I was when I went to sleep. I don't know why, but I don't get as many weird dreams when I'm not pregnant.
Elena woke up at 4 a.m. crying, I guess she'd had a bad dream. She usually asks for Ben, so he went to check on her, but this time she wanted me. I went over, kissed her, told her to go back to sleep and so I thought she did. When I was finally drifting back to sleep myself I felt her little hand tugging at my shirt. As I turned to look at her she triumphantly whispered her announcement; she had just gone to the bathroom! Followed by the request to climb in bed with us. I let her.
She was quietly next to me, trying to go back to sleep when Adriana woke up and asked for her milk. I gave her what was left of it and told her to go back to sleep. And so it went, with them taking turns to say something or do something until at 6.30 I finally gave up. It normally doesn't happen with lack of sleep but I was cranky this morning. Fortunately, Ben had the day off so once he was done with his training run he let me go back to bed and I took a nap.
Now, I don't know if it was all that's on my mind or just the messed up sleep schedule but I never quite felt 100% and the rest of the day went blah. To top it all off I had a dentist appointment, at least it was only a cleaning.
I have to admit I am caught in thought and a little worry. I need to remind myself of God's sovereignty. I need to remind myself that as much as I love the people I love, God still loves them more. I need to remind myself that He can intervene where I can't and that my prayers are more powerful than my words or my actions can ever be. Finally, I need to remind myself that no matter what decisions people make, He is still in control.
Elena woke up at 4 a.m. crying, I guess she'd had a bad dream. She usually asks for Ben, so he went to check on her, but this time she wanted me. I went over, kissed her, told her to go back to sleep and so I thought she did. When I was finally drifting back to sleep myself I felt her little hand tugging at my shirt. As I turned to look at her she triumphantly whispered her announcement; she had just gone to the bathroom! Followed by the request to climb in bed with us. I let her.
She was quietly next to me, trying to go back to sleep when Adriana woke up and asked for her milk. I gave her what was left of it and told her to go back to sleep. And so it went, with them taking turns to say something or do something until at 6.30 I finally gave up. It normally doesn't happen with lack of sleep but I was cranky this morning. Fortunately, Ben had the day off so once he was done with his training run he let me go back to bed and I took a nap.
Now, I don't know if it was all that's on my mind or just the messed up sleep schedule but I never quite felt 100% and the rest of the day went blah. To top it all off I had a dentist appointment, at least it was only a cleaning.
I have to admit I am caught in thought and a little worry. I need to remind myself of God's sovereignty. I need to remind myself that as much as I love the people I love, God still loves them more. I need to remind myself that He can intervene where I can't and that my prayers are more powerful than my words or my actions can ever be. Finally, I need to remind myself that no matter what decisions people make, He is still in control.
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you said, "I need to remind myself that as much as I love the people I love, God still loves them more. I need to remind myself that He can intervene where I can't and that my prayers are more powerful than my words or my actions can ever be. Finally, I need to remind myself that no matter what decisions people make, He is still in control."
You are so right Keila. I have some concerns I am facing now, both personal and others related to people I love. Silence in conversation may be necessary, but the Lord hears all my prayers as I take these concerns to Him.
Thank you for sharing from your heart. It is an encouragement! I hope your "blah" feelings don't last. Even in fatigue, may the Lord renew Your strength! Love you.
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